Hello Julie,

I am writing to you because i feel lost. Ever since i can remember i wanted to be a nurse, eventually I became one and knew while doing this work that this was what I was put on this earth to do...my calling. However a few years ago I was involved in a serious car accident and have a number of health issues that prevent me from returning to nursing. Since then I have been lost, I don't know now why I am here, i know I am meant to be here because it was by the Grace of GOD that i did not die from the car accident but I am having a lot of difficulty finding a direction or meaning in my life. I have asked God to please show me a path but still i wait in limbo. I know that am still very sad and am grieving for losing my ability to nurse...would those feelings prevent me from new path being revealed? S.

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Dear One,

The losses that people sustain are and can be part of a new path of growth that can unfold. Loss itself can catapult one's consciousness into a new place, allowing new needs, perceptions, and relationships to develop. This includes your relationship with the Divine.

You have spent many years as a nurse/helper whose heart greatly identified with this loving, caretaking role. Now, you have become one who needs Divine help and help in other ways as well. It is in this way that your inner being is coming into balance.

Try, therefore, to see whether your loss can instead of leading to grief for what can no longer be, lead to a deepening of your reliance on Divine help, support, and guidance. Do not be dismayed if a clear outer path does not open up quickly, since your relationship with asking for help from God is part of the new path. Seek, then, to deepen your understanding and experience of Divine help, and pray to feel more and more of this inner support and communion.

You are beloved, dear one, and in a position to still help others with your increased understanding of how, when strength and the ability to choose what you would like to choose as an activity is removed, you are compelled to turn even more fully to the Divine to show you how to deal with this new helplessness. Give your helplessness to God, beloved one. You can no longer be active in the way that your heart told you it wanted to do. Now, discover what God's heart wants you to do, and not only do, but feel. Your path may not be reflected in an outer activity, at least for a time, but an inner activity. You have been accustomed to being outwardly active, helping, ministering, caring for others. Now, let yourself be cared for by God.

See this as the new path and the alternative to grief and feeling lost. You are being brought forward along your spiritual path by the very thing that seems to be taking you away from it. Blessings, beloved one. Please write again if I may be of further help. Julie Redstone

P.S. As an aide to this turning inward, you may find the Practice of Alignment helpful or other regular spiritual supports.