I consider myself very fortunate and so far I had a reasonably comfortable life and never had to starve. And while I understand that I have to take responsibilty in my life I fail to do so again and again. I am 29 and still milking my parents eventhough they don't have much milk left. I am still in school trying to pursue a career which seems unreachable given my grades. I am deeply in debt over traffic violations and struggle to keep up with bills. Because I believe I often do not make the right choices. And while I am clearly aware of my own responsibilty I struggle to change. My dream is to become successful enough to support my parents in their last days and maybe a family of my own some day. I also always felt as if I was meant to do something important for the benefit of all but I coul never really grasp how and which direction to go. However I feel as I have dug myself a hole, I cannot get out of and my dream seems to slip further and further out of reach. I feel almost possessed by some negativity that I can only break through in rare occasions with it always trying gain control. I understand that this represents our inner struggle and that I can over come it but I feel as I need guidance of some sort. I would appreciate any words of wisdom and conformation. Thank you for your consideration. V.

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Dear One,

Everything is as you say it is, except that your motivation to change is being hampered by forces that would keep you from being yourself. As a result of these energies, you are paying a high price in not being able to actualize your life - the life you wish to lead.

The lack of will is not something that is just a personal handicap. It is a personal limitation that is being influenced by energies that actively seek to keep those who have the capacity to do good for the world from doing this. Given these circumstances, it is important that you consider that you have a choice in the matter. Although giving up and remaining unmotivated through lack of will can continue, it would be best for you as well as for the gifts that you have to bring to the world to understand how to take a stand against the energies that are influencing you. This is done primarily through alignment with God's truth and light.

Your problems must first be placed in a spiritual context related to energy and soul-purpose. Then, having done that, you can seek to remain faithful to your own soul's purpose by not agreeing with the influencing energies that you do not have enough motivation to change. These energies may be powerful, but Divine light is more powerful.

For a place to start, you may wish to consider the Practice of Alignment as a spiritual practice you can do on a daily basis. You may also wish to read the articles on "Maintaining Alignment With Light" on this page.

Dear One, the choice is yours as to which perspective you will hold regarding these difficulties. Your soul and its purpose desires to be expressed through your embodied self. Now is the time to commit yourself to the fulfillment of that purpose and to return to the light that is your natural birthright and inheritance. May all the blessings of light be with you.

Julie Redstone