Dear Julie, I have been at a loss to get relief from some pain that I have had for years. I have been to doctors and naturopaths and have found no relief. So lately I have been wondering (wandering) from two viewpoints: 1) what is it that I am to learn spiritually before this pain is relieved; 2) do I already have the answer in something I have tried or not stuck with enough, i.e. color therapy, radionics? Will I ever find healing or partial relief? I sometimes get depressed upon awakening to the same thing day after day. I feel so lost. Today I was led to this web site and felt the urge to email you for any insight you could give. Thank you in advance for your energy. Espavo. -- Paul

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Dear Paul,

You have tried many avenues for helping and healing your pain and it is your choice as to whether you look at it from a structural/physical standpoint or from the standpoint of the consciousness that creates all of physical reality.

With the latter in mind, the pain you have been feeling and been unable to release has a twofold purpose. On the one hand, it is necessary that you develop a different relationship with your body than the one that has existed in previous times in your soul's history, and on the other hand, it has become a vehicle for suppressed feelings that your consciousness has not yet been fully willing or able to bear.

The first has to do with a more respectful attitude toward your body in a physical sense, and in an overall sense a more respectful attitude toward your embodied life. This involves self-care, hope for the future, love for your self and your life, and gentleness in general. On the other hand, the need to suppress feelings of anger and grief from past lifetimes has strongly infiltrated the cellular structure of your body and so it is increasing the neurological difficulty that is involved with this painful condition and making it chronic rather than something that can be more easily let go of.

Healing of your spiritual/emotional self begins with the willingness to do so, dear one. It is not uncommon that people with the best intentions have not found a way to deal with deeply buried feelings and these feelings, as a result, have found their way into physical expression.

As stated above, much depends upon your point of view and whether a consciousness approach to your present dilemma seems real and valid to you. There is no reason that you should not also seek relief from your pain in whatever physical ways you think might be helpful, but the part of you that wants to be free of it altogether might choose to investigate the consciousness aspects so that you can begin to allow the blocked energy to move more freely in the areas in which this is not now happening.

You are a beautiful soul, with much knowledge and wisdom, and yet you have been out of touch in a certain way with the deeper layers of yourself. If you begin to ask for light to come to you to reveal your emotional self to your daytime consciousness, this will begin to happen. Placing yourself in environments that are light-filled or engaging in spiritual practices with the same focus will also serve you well.

If I can be of further help to you, please let me know. Blessings, dear one. The Realms of Light wish you a pain-free life, joining with your own wishes for the same. Julie Redstone