I am dealing with a heart illness and am afraid I will die. I know I am here for a special reason but I have never been able to know what that is. I don't want to die before I do something right. I can't seem to stop smoking or eating wrong and those are so important to my current health issues. I seem so alone. -- Sharon

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Dearest Beloved One,

You have been traveling through life with a feeling of aloneness which you have been trying to deal with as best you can through habits that are not serving you. These habits have been coping mechanisms to deal with depression and loneliness. The physical expression of your illness is, in part, a result and manifestation of these underlying issues, and it is important for you to recognize that your heart has been hurting for a long time while you have tried bravely to deal with this pain.

Yet, the real solution to the problem that will allow you to drop your negative habits which detract from your health has to do with feeling loved, connecting more deeply with others, and with valuing yourself. There are many places you might begin with this, but a place of connection with God within you is the most important since all love comes from this Source, and self-love is most significantly related to feeling loved from within.

If you do not know how to begin to create this connection, simply determine to address the problem of lack of love directly by bringing it to God. Create an altar in your home, light a candle, sit at it regularly. Pray to learn how to feel loved and loving. That is all you need to do to begin.

If you would like to write to me further about this please do so. It is not too late for you to make this shift, beloved one. Begin now. The sense of purpose you seek is connected with these things. Blessings - Julie Redstone