Dear Julie,

Fear is a problem that I have not been able to overcome. I have nothing to base my fear on and it isn't the typical type of fear. I am very adept at manifesting. It seems to just come naturally to me, and I am getting better at it all of the time. My problem is that once I've manifested something I go into a complete panic emotionally - this is with anything - job, possessions, situations, money, relationships. It is almost as if I believe it until it happens, then when it does I can't believe it anymore?

I see this pattern in all areas of my life and am at a loss as to what to do about it. If I could just let go of this fear, I know everything would be alright. By the way, once the fear sets in, very rarely does anything happen to change anything, other than my reactions or choices I make in response to that fear. Usually I just manifest something else to get my mind off of the fear I think. HOW do I overcome this??? -- Kelly

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Dearest Kelly,

It often happens that one part of the personal self is aligned with light and with the deeper strata of being, while another part of that same self is holding beliefs related to an old identity that is no longer present in time and space but that feels present. Then the light-filled self feels separated from the self-in-limitation, and can't imagine how to get the two together.

This is the situation that you are describing. Your capacity to bring things into being through inspiration, intuition, energy, and inner guidance, allows things to flow easily while the creative process is bringing them forth. This part of you is connected with the will to create which is part of the Divinely guided flow of life. There is another part of you, however, that feels unworthy of creation, and that feels that what you have brought into being is not really deserved and not really real. Often, such perceptions are influenced by soul-memories in which success was denied or disallowed. This other part feels small and judgmental of the self. Instead of feeling competent and able to shape life, it feels at the mercy of outside forces. And so in this smaller self-identity you fear that what you have manifested either will disappear because it is not real, or somehow be taken away.

These are two versions of identity at work, dear one, and in order to get them together you need to address the part of you that feels self-doubting and unworthy of having things and of being able to manifest things. This smaller self needs your compassion but not your identification. Once you take these issues concerning self-worth and self-doubt out of the closet, you will find that you can stabilize your inner state so that you allow the Divine flow that guides the creative process to also uphold the outcome once something has come into being.

In addition, if you ask to be aligned with God's Will in all that you create so that it serves the highest good, you will feel deserving and able to serve as an instrument of the Divine without fear or self-doubt getting in the way. This is because it will then not be about 'your' self, but about God's 'Self'.

Blessings, dearest Kelly. Julie Redstone