I find myself in a situation (and this has been the case for over two years now) where I have little or no power both in my home or the work place I do not see myself as a victim and do not experience myself as a powerless woman yet, for some reason this is what life has presented me with. I do not have the financial means with which to leave the situation, on the contrary! So, every day I'm having to deal with situations both between myself and my partner (who is also my boss) and his father (who owns both the flat I live in and the business itself) where at the end of the day what THEY say goes, even though my partner continuously reassures me that it is our home!.. It feels so so debilitating and whereas in the past I would blow up whenever I felt that I was being stripped of my power, now I say very little. I found that fighting with my opponent just escalated the problem. It feels so so debilitating. Whenever someone tries to control me it brings up so much stuff up in me namely powerlessness, helplessness and hopelessness. There must be a lesson in all of this, but I can't for the life of me see what it is. Am I going backwards on my path? Have I attracted this for a reason? -- T.

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Dear One,

Your dilemma is a very understandable one that many have to face as they journey toward the light. It is the baring of the soul's intentions as it seeks a deeper healing of the embodied self, often at the cost of personal comfort and pain. This revelation of the soul's motives as they impinge on the shaping of a life always leads to a positive outcome. No matter what the degree of discomfort that the outer self may face, the inner being, on the soul level, knows the good that is being accomplished.

In the case of your experience of powerlessness, what is being corrected and implemented according to your soul's plan for this lifetime is the correction of an unbalanced use of will to the detriment of your own growth as a whole spiritual being. The misuse of will can lead, in general, to a manipulation of others, an abrogation of their rights, to a sense of superiority over others, or toward contempt for the weakness of others. It is a tendency of the ego that is often amplified by energies of darkness, causing one to seek power rather than love. When the soul takes over and establishes the means for correcting this imbalance, the result is often a time of extreme helplessness or powerlessness so that the experience one has imposed on others can be felt by the self. The above characteristics should not be assumed to all be yours, but rather to indicate general trends that relate to the will, and to the manner in which healing is pursued by the soul.

Humility is key in relation to the healing of imbalances of the will, and a sense of acceptance, not as a 'victim', but as one who is learning to turn to God for meeting one's essential needs. In addition, surrender to Divine guidace and direction is also part of the healing, becoming an increasingly large portion of one's conscious life.

Dear one, the degree of powerlessness you experience may seem extreme to you, however, it is a choice made and a task taken on to move you rather quickly into a new relationship with your will and with the qualities of humility and surrender.

Try to deepen your own relationship with inner guidance and with the Divine Presence within you, for the inner guide is truly there, and all outer circumstances that cause you to feel helpless can disappear when in contact with the one true source of identity and power. This power is not yours, but Divine power within. It is this power that you are being asked to locate, to find, and to attune to so that you will no longer need to seek it outwardly, and so that the current of will can come into balance with the equally important currents of love and wisdom within you.

The trials you have been going through are real trials, dear one, but the gaining of experience and knowledge through these trials will make it ultimately seem worthwhile as you come to know that all that you have lived through is serving a useful purpose. Strengthen yourself inwardly, and understand the nature of real power and where it comes from. Let go of the hopelessness that is coloring your outlook, for this is not coming from a place of truth. The truth of these years is the truth of the inner growth that has taken place so clearly and abundantly. When you no longer need the conditions of outer helplessness, they will disappear.

Blessings, dear one. You are greatly loved by the Divine realms and by God. Julie