I have dealt with mental illness since I was molested when I was six. 'm now 48yrs. old and I'm losing the battle over. There has been to years of pain and suffering. I don't want to be alive if these feelings won't go away. I have lost the will to live and I feel I won't be missed if I'm not on earth. We live in a very cruel world. It saddens me to think the people who live on this earth has become "The me, myself, and I generation. There are no morals and values, no respect for life. I'm not a saint but I would hurt myself before I would hurt anyone else.

I prayer often every day and I just don't know what to do anymore what to do to make these ups and downs with my mental illness. I take medicine, have therapists,doctors, and take classes on how to deal with it.I'm on social seccurity diability because of it. I 'm tired of being made fun of,and treated terribly by people. I did not ask for it but I do. I'm ashamed to have it and would rather have cancer instead, because mental illness has gotten a bad rap by the media and the uneducated majority of people who don't think it is an illness and is dismissed as a serious illness.

It has taken a tool on my family and I don't want to keep putting my family and friends through this. I don't want to be a burden anymore. I have no self esteem or confidence or any good image of myself and haven't been able to left my head up because when I do someone kicks me down again. I have no money to spend on people who say they have this ability to talk to angels or whatever because they use a gift from God as a source of income and not a way to help people who genuinely need help. I know I have angels around me especcially because I have had some things happen that I know they are there. I want to rest in my Father in heaven and to be where love is everywhere. No one but my God is there,andthat's why I want to be there. -- Judith

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Dearest Judith,

It is a time for love and a time for healing in the world, even though there is still much harshness and self-seeking, and even though selfishness still prevails in many hearts. Nevertheless, those who are open to God's light are feeling a new impulse of love coming to them and through them, and they are becoming better able to love others and to be kind to others.

You need to associate yourself, dear one, with those who would love and support you despite your difficulty and disability. You are a soul, a child of God, and exist in great beauty within yourself despite whatever limitations exist on the outside. Trust that this beauty is still intact within you. Trust that if you could make the effort, you would find those souls who can feel and sense the soul of another and can extend love, irrespective of the mental or emotional problems another might have.

Your sorrow and despair have built up over many years of trying to find solutions to the problem of depression and the problem of isolation. We, of the Realms of Light, understand this dilemma which has caused you so much pain and so much anguish. Yet, it is not time to give up, dear one, but to go forward in God, trusting that the world is opening up in new ways now, and that more love can be found than before.

We recommend to you that you join the Discussion Forum at Worldblessings.net, and that you speak from your heart there and allow others to respond to the very deep and real pain you have been feeling. There are many others who are going through very difficult times at present - many who are feeling despair, hopelessness, and a wish to give up after waiting for a very long time for things to change. Try to connect with these others who will know what is in your heart, and who will value you as a soul struggling to remain faithful to God and to the truth of your own deepest heart.

For many, the journey through life has been filled with hardship, loneliness, and isolation, and one has had to get through these things on faith alone, believing in oneself and in the presence of God . This Presence accompanies every soul, no matter what the journey, no matter what the outer limitations.

For you, dear one, it is important now to connect with others who can love and understand you, and also to disconnect from those people, places, and situations that cause you to feel worse about yourself. What has not been possible before is becoming possible now in the way of healing, and so it is worthwhile to hold on longer and to continue to have hope. For the dark cloud that you have lived under for so long is almost ready to be lifted, and can be lifted as new light energy penetrates the earth and lifts all hearts.

Blessings, beloved one. You are greatly loved by God and by those in the Realms of Light. Julie