Yesterday, I took an hour ferry ride to participate in a second interview for a job in Seattle that was feeling right and I was very hopeful...I have, as yet, received (no) word one way or another, but last night I felt this HUGE emotion rise up around what do I have to do to prove my self worthy to be taken care of...finances are very low...I am grateful and blessed with a roof over my head and food to eat for the moment...parts of me saying, I trust and I know and others saying could you lose even more? I hesitate to write knowing somehow that all is in divine and perfect order, but I am shaken to my core...the words, dark night of my soul seem to resonate and make sense...any words of encouragement would be most appreciated. My purpose still eludes me other than being the best I can be in any given moment...I seek guidance that eludes me. Blessings shower upon you with love from my heart. --Deb

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Dearest Deb,

You are gifted with a beautiful heart and soul that have yet to find a means for expression in the true sense to which they are called. These gifts are unknown to you at present, for you are not really aware of the light of your being and the capacity of that light to act as a healing force for others and for the planet as a whole. You are still thinking of your circumstances as personal circumstances and wondering what you have to do in order to make yourself more available to have things be clarified for you - spiritually, financially, and emotionally.

Dearest beloved one, there is nothing more that you need to do except to believe in yourself and in your reason for being here. You have come not to just be a point of light on the planet, but to help in an active way in the planetary transition into light. For this to happen, circumstances and energies must align themselves around you and within you so that you feel inwardly the truth of where you are meant to be. This will be a truth that resonates in your heart and it has not happened yet because it has not been capable of happening since the external planetary situation has not yet developed to the point that would permit it.

Be patient, dear one. And believe in yourself and in the guidance I shared with you earlier about all being accomplished inwardly, even before it manifests outwardly. For the degree of love, devotion, surrender, and desire to serve that you carry in your heart have only been strengthened during these years of financial hardship, and you have had to walk on a path of trust that will show the way for others when the time is right, so that they are able to do so as well. Believe this, dear one, and do not think that you will have to lose more in the sense of becoming destitute. This is not what God is asking of you. Rather, it is to wait, to trust, and to know that your inner alignment with Divine purpose is strengthening day by day and week by week over these years of waiting, as you allow yourself to be led by God in the direction your soul has chosen.

Blessings, and all love to you from the Realms of Light who are aware of your financial dilemmas and are also waiting with you for the true measure of your heart's love to find its soul-chosen and rightful way of manifesting. Julie