I am just going through my 15th miscarriage. We have tried every medical intervention known for my medical problems. I was also working with a healer trying not to "will" the pregnancy and instead "let go" and connect with mother earth. Using deep idigo visulaization through my body to try to dispell the old imprints creating the antibodies against the baby and trying to visualize light and new messages into my body from mother earth. I truly felt that this time our little soul was going to stick with us and be born. I felt his presence so strongly. I know he is going to come to us, whether I carry him or adopt him, I just felt like I was meant to carry him into this world. I am just feeling so sad and lost. -- Sara

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Dear One,

Your pain about the most recent loss is deep, as is your longing. Out of this shall come a new reality that you desire, however its time has not yet arrived. Sometimes, the heart must be very patient with longings that seem very natural to it and very much a part of the deepest self, in order that conditions be made ready for the arrival of a new entity into the world with a different vibration. This being, to whom you feel so connected, is carrying a different vibration than you are and is meant to bring something special into life - not only into your family's life but into the world's life. For this to happen, the energy matrix that creates the greatest resonance has to be right and it has to be made ready, both in terms of your own physical body and in terms of events, energies, and circumstances of a planetary nature.

The time of waiting's end draws closer, however, though the precise date of that cannot be known. There will be a time in which it will become easier to conceive for you, and it will not be because you have done more emotional 'work' on yourself, but because energetic conditions have changed permitting a greater energetic resonance between the incoming soul and the spiritual, social, and familial environment he is coming to.

Do not despair, dear one. What your heart most deeply desires shall be, albeit not on the timetable you would like. Continue to pray with an open heart, desiring God to send this soul to you when the time is right, and ask that all be done so that you can be fully ready to receive him. All will be well, beloved one. Only patience and forbearance are needed so that you can get through this time of waiting.

Blessings - Julie Redstone