Dear Julie,

My husband was just fired from his job and I have been very ill and haven't been able to work or think. I was just starting to get better because I found a doctor who knew what was wrong with me, but now not only is our health insurance about to end, but we don't even know where we will get grocery money in two weeks. All our emergency money went to medical bills so i could get better. Despite his job, we were already in dire financial straights before and frankly there was a lot about his job that was psychically demanding and unpleasant and that he hated.

While I have abilities in many areas, I don't know what to do for employment that I can sustain with my illness, or what will make us enough money to offset what might happen to my health if I overdo. If you can see any light or direction for me here, help, please. My husband (Robert) is also applying for jobs. Any direction or support you can offer him would also be most appreciated. -- Jane

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Dear One,

Blessings at this very difficult time for you and your husband. During this period when everything seems to be precariously balanced, with no apparent source of financial support for the future, trust is needed that a way will be found to stay afloat. There are opportunities that will come to you that will offer you what may be a way to partially support the situation, and there are similarly things that your husband can choose to do in order to hold things together in a more active way. These emergency measures which will appear are needed in order to ground the situation in a foundation of support so that you can continue with your lives. They are not long-term solutions to the problem, but rather short-term ones. The important thing at the moment is to try and replace fear with trust.

One of the issues that is working to create despair and hopelessness in you, dear one, is self-blame related to the illness itself. While part of you accepts things as they are, another part feels that you are at fault for having created or invited this illness in some way. You are not at fault. The illness is part of a process of learning that your soul chose, but it is not something that you, in your embodied self, can take responsibility for.

Your husband needs also to feel more confident in himself and in his ability to take action to deal with an emergency situation. He needs to see himself as someone who has much to offer along different lines of work, and who would be able to find work if he expressed himself with confidence.

These problems are known to God, dear one. They are not accidental but are part of your soul's plan for dealing with things during this incarnation. Try to find a way of believing that you and Robert can take measures to support yourselves right now and that a way will open up before you to do so. And believe that there is no shame in your illness. The increase in confidence and hope along with the absence of shame and judgment on your part, will energetically alter the situation so that you attract opportunities that will work for you in this present crisis. But your attitude must be positive and hopeful in order for this to happen.

Blessings, dear one. Pray for hope and for trust and out of that, believe that a way through this 'dark night' will appear. Julie

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