Hi and thanks for helping me , with a guideance . I have been hurt by many bad things in life and want to heal and be normal again . My children need to have a loving dad in there lives again . I have been through all sorts of personal losses , each hitting right where it hurts the most , and I really cannot fight it all anymore. Thanks tom .

I am a uilleann bagpiper and have a degree in psychology . The troubles began after my devorce five years ago . I wound up all but homeless and have been through losses of pipes , due to shoulder injury , alot of money , I never had that much but my dad died one week after sept 11 and I went through it all due to devorce and expenses . I also drank heavily and am now 3 years sober and things are turning around ... It has to end , though I am , and have been at the end of my rope .

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Dear One,

Your pain is very real and the causes of it are very real. Yet, there is a need for you to let go of the past at this time so that you can build a bridge to the future. The sense that you have of wanting to be a good father is an essential part of the motivation toward the new, and must be clung to as a guiding principle in all that you undertake. No matter what failures or losses you have experienced, the basis for this next phase of your life is your reliance on and trust in love and in your love which wants to reach out and to uphold those you love.

Try to put the wounds of the past behind you, for they do not have to be part of your permanent self. They will only remain a core part of your identity if you allow them to. Rather, build a new road to walk on that is composed of love and joy, and that comes from your heart's desire to be the kind of person that you wish to be. Your presence on the Earth makes a difference, dear beloved one, and you need to know this, no matter what trials and tributlations you have been through. You have come here to help the planet at this time through your being here, and so it is important that you let the past go and let the light come into you more.

For this purpose, it will be helpful for you to have a way of anchoring daily in something positive and uplifting - daily prayers, daily meditations, daily walks in nature. You might wish to receive one or more of the Light Omega calendars to help you on your way.

Do not be discouraged about what has been. A new chapter in life can begin now if you will let it. Blessings and Amen. With love, Julie Redstone